Intifada

We are in the last few days of Ramadan. Incredible and disheartening how quickly it flew by. I think I would be one of many, many Muslims who would say that I feel this Ramadan has been robbed from me. Unless you’re purposely shunning out any world news, you’ll know that there is a genocide … Continue reading

Skipping lunch

It’s Ramadan! For those who don’t know, Ramadan is a month of Muslim calendar in which we fast from food, drink (yes even water), and sexual relations from dawn to dusk for 30 days. The idea is that by abstaining from things that God has made lawful, and even good and beneficial, after the month … Continue reading

One month of life

I can’t believe it’s been a full month since I’ve written here–it feels like so recently I was writing my exams, and here I am fully engaged in summer mode. Too many things to recap:  I passed my exams! Yay! Even the dreaded anatomy bellringer. I was actually quite in shock about that one, as … Continue reading

Let’s talk about

In case you were wondering, taking a sexual history in an OSCE situation is just as mortifying as you expect it to be. Especially when you want to wince apologetically before every question you ask. Especially when you have no idea how personal is too personal, and what sexual practices might or might not be … Continue reading

Work a little to ball a lot

Yesterday was the first time in my life I gave a job interview where I felt the interviewers were trying to impress me and convince me why I should take the job, more than I was trying to impress them and convince them they should hire me. Is this what life will be like from now on, … Continue reading

Started from the bottom, now we here

I’ve noticed a huge shift in my thinking as a medical student. As in, I finally feel like I’m “thinking like a doctor.” I’m not alone in this, as many of my classmates have said the same thing as going through our first year notes in studying for the comp. But I feel it’s particularly … Continue reading

A haiku

your absence feels likea hole in my chest; inhale,killing me softly you’ve replaced my bloodwith dearth, insufficiencyyou are my tension pneumo.

Bon Iver

I wish I could say I was doing better, that I’m hanging in there, that I’m chugging along these last few weeks. But yesterday was terrible. Today was almost as bad. I am consumed with feelings of inadequacy, incompetency, and overwhelming loneliness. Overwhelming. They told us this profession would do that to us. I guess … Continue reading

Dat sh– cray

This sucks–here I thought I had my life figured out and knew exactly what I wanted to do (community pediatrics, 100%), then I finish my psych block and I’m totally in love with it. This is the first time I’ve enjoyed studying for a final. And the first time I feel like I’d be a totally … Continue reading

Venn

The world of Islam and the world of medicine comprise the two most important aspects of my identity. You can imagine how you might lose a sense of self when you observe how little those worlds overlap. Everyday, instead of getting closer together, those worlds seem to get further and further apart. In Islamic circles, … Continue reading